Everyday is a struggle. A constant battle to keep from succumbing to my natural human instinct to just give up. It's hard not knowing what to do with myself after spending years being "us". You're probably wiggin-out after reading my last 2 posts which is why I'm writing this 3rd one. Rest assured that I wanna push forward more than I wanna give up. I wanna be happy and I want the girls to be happy more than I wanna spend my days sad, feeling like it's the end of the world. And I wanna live the rest of my life pleasing in God's eyes more than I wanna question God and feel like He forgot about me. I'm still up for the fight with the strength only God can provide.
I'm hurting and a mess, but still gettin through it by the grace of God. 1434
Here's my letter to you, Mark Matthew Aragon. The LOVE of my life, and Papa to our girls, who's Heavenly birthday is 11/04/2010. There's so much I want to say and if Heaven had a phone, I'd call. Missing & loving you more everyday, Lei
