Sick and Tired

Once again, I took a trip down your FB page. Sometimes I find myself wishing you were here to talk things through with, so I'm so blessed to be able to go back to read your posts and comments. You posted so many words of wisdom that help me even now, so THANK YOU!

Tonight, what really spoke volumes to me is what you posted on May 25 at 7:22am:
"If you are sick and tired of being in the same situation day in and day out. Keep this in mind. God did not want you to be content (w/ feeling sick and tired), he actually commands us to change... "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12: 2

After many "likes" and "thank you's", you posted: "I'm glad I can be a voice of inspiration for everyone....I'm just reiterating the good Book......"


Babee - I am sick and tired of being in the same situation day in and day out!!! I have never found myself feeling so helpless and emoitonal in my life! On top of everything, the fact that it's been so difficult to find a job has totally broken me...

It's not necessarily the situation I'm in that's got me sick and tired - I know it's a blessing for me to be going through this whole grieving process cuz if I wasn't, that would mean something's terribly wrong. What I'm really sick and tired of is the fact that I can't expect anything. I can't plan on how I'm gonna feel an hour from now, let alone tomorrow! The only thing I'm ever successful at scheduling is getting the girls to/from school and AWANAs, but even that doesn't always work out as it should.

Through your FB page, you're telling me "God did not want you to be content (with being sick and tired, that is), he actually commands us to change...". HE commands me to change! I MUST CHANGE! I get that! So, can you tell me what to change? I'm so used to saying "alright babee - I can't figure it out, or decide what to do, so tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it!" It was so much easier that way! To be able to just trust in you and know that you always had our best interest at heart was such a comfort.

I have to do ALL the discerning now. There's no more bouncing ideas off of you or simply saying "you decide"...Everything's on me! Ya, it feels nice when I make a right decision and things turn out fine...But when I'm wrong about something, I feel the weight of the consequences 10-times stronger! I don't know how to be "alone". I miss being a couple...

I need to TRUST in HIM! It's so easy to say I do, but I need to daily surrender all of me to HIM! I was there before...WE were there before. Now, I'm praying for the strength to get there again. Your quiet strength helps, but I need Christ's power to fill the void left in me without you here.

Another verse that came to mind after reading your page...one about contentment too, is:
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:11-13

For a second, it seems like it says the opposite of what you were saying about contentment - but after REALLY reading it, it's telling me that rather than being content with simply wanting things, I need to change my thought process and be happy and OK with what I am blessed with. That makes so much sense to me now! Wow! I love writing you:)

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