Today (technically yesterday) was such an GOOD Friday! Even with my jacked-up shoulder and sore muscles!
Keila and I attended FBC's Good Friday service where we worshiped and heard the Good News of Christ's LOVE for us. There is NO greater love. It always get's me when I think about just how much He endured for our sake. Thankfully He did, and that's why we praise HIM:).
Then we went and hung out with Fave & Fave Jr., which is always fun. Fave is such a strong, beautiful woman and I know you're proud of her! I found out she's addicted to qtips too! LoL You used to laugh at me because I was, but you never told me she was too!!! Hahahaha I'll never forget the times you'd come by my work and peek your head in my office and say "I know why your door is closed...you're qtip'ing again, huh?". LoL You'd even open my desk drawer somtimes and check to see if my stash of qtips was running low - and sometimes even fill it up for me! Now THAT'S love:)
And, my goodness, your ina-anak is so much like you babe! She's a bottomless pit and there were random things she'd say/do that would make me stop and say "she's just like her ninong!" :)
Man, I could talk to Fave forever! Whether it's about you, family, ourselves, or just life in general...I'm so glad we can just kick-it like we do. No awkwardness even when we haven't seen eachother in a long time. I LOVE when she shares her memories of you. We agreed that we should spend much more time together...especially the girls. They are cousins, after all.
Anyways, Keila's got a placement test to take all the way at CSU East Bay in the morning which will determine what Math class she'll be taking at SFSU in the Fall. PLEASE beam down some of your math geeky-ness for her. You always helped her with it, so she'll need your guidance.
We'll be leaving early in the morning, so I'm gonna rest-up now. I just wanted to take a moment to share about my Good Friday, and remind you once again that I love you MORE:)! Good night handsome.
Here's my letter to you, Mark Matthew Aragon. The LOVE of my life, and Papa to our girls, who's Heavenly birthday is 11/04/2010. There's so much I want to say and if Heaven had a phone, I'd call. Missing & loving you more everyday, Lei
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Cheesy/Geeky
Hey Babee. I just got home from the YTB/ZZ meeting here in Sac. It was SO WIERD being there without you! Even wierder than the Red Carpet event in Vegas! Myk and Jamie did the presentation and I finally got to meet Mariecel. It's always so nice to meet old friends of yours that you've told stories about. She told me about how you were her kuya and always looked out for her. She also shared with me how she found out about what happened to you and while we didn't cry like babies, we definately teared-up.
It was so hard for me to concentrate on the presentation. Myk mentored you, so as he did his thang, all I could do was picture you up there. I felt bad at the end of it because my mind wandered so far away from it...all the info didn't stand a chance to soak-into my brain. I'll be meeting Cel and her Aunt for the next meeting, so hopefully I'll be more attentive then.
One of the memories that wandered through my mind is how you used to wear that scroll/pin thingy on your back collar. It would always have some tag-line to catch people's attention and ask you about our biz. The girls and I used to laugh about it...but it sure worked cuz people always asked!
Then there's the DJ gig's you'd have at the Nordstrom Rack every once in a while. You used the time you were there to find prospects for the biz! The table would be covered with biz info and your business cards...AND (of course) the scroll/pin thingy would be pinned to something on the table too:). I miss your cheesy-geekyness.
Anyways, I didn't get much sleep last night. In fact, the last time I looked at the time before I fell asleep it was already 5am! So, I'm pretty sure I'll KO very, very soon. I'll chat with you later my geek-angel.
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It was so hard for me to concentrate on the presentation. Myk mentored you, so as he did his thang, all I could do was picture you up there. I felt bad at the end of it because my mind wandered so far away from it...all the info didn't stand a chance to soak-into my brain. I'll be meeting Cel and her Aunt for the next meeting, so hopefully I'll be more attentive then.
One of the memories that wandered through my mind is how you used to wear that scroll/pin thingy on your back collar. It would always have some tag-line to catch people's attention and ask you about our biz. The girls and I used to laugh about it...but it sure worked cuz people always asked!
Then there's the DJ gig's you'd have at the Nordstrom Rack every once in a while. You used the time you were there to find prospects for the biz! The table would be covered with biz info and your business cards...AND (of course) the scroll/pin thingy would be pinned to something on the table too:). I miss your cheesy-geekyness.
Anyways, I didn't get much sleep last night. In fact, the last time I looked at the time before I fell asleep it was already 5am! So, I'm pretty sure I'll KO very, very soon. I'll chat with you later my geek-angel.
1434
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Simple Moments
Of all the things I miss about you, I miss our simple moments the most...the moments that didn't cost a thing, but meant EVERYthing.
Sitting on the couch holding hands, even when it wasn't anything you were interested in. And how your head would end up on my shoulder...then you'd fall asleep. I'd end up waking you up cuz your snoring was louder than the TV. Sometimes I'd get frustrated after waking you and telling you to go sleep in the room over and over, but you'd never wanna leave my side till I was ready for bed too. I'm glad you never listened.
A lot of couples barely talk to eachother at home, let alone be affectionate with eachother. But not us! You always had your arms around me or held my hand. Asleep, awake, by ourselves, with a house full of guests, ALWAYS! We would be doing our own thing and a song would play...next thing I knew, you'd stop what you were doing, pull me away from whatever I was doing and we'd be slow dancing in the kitchen! We were like those elderly couples we see on TV that made us sigh and say "that's what I want when I'm old."
The times we'd turn everything off and just sit there on the couch and TALK. No TV, no music, just you & me talking about whatever. "Only rule - no serious talk!"
The way I held my head up high whenever I was out with you. You were like my trophy-husband! LoL Seriously though, having your arm around me was a privlege I never took for granted.
Your appetite! You made me feel like the best cook in the entire world! You were the best taste-tester ever because you'd always say you loved it from the first taste-test to the last:). Ya, you just plain liked FOOD...but you still made me feel special:)
Other than our you-and-me-special moments, i've been thinking a lot about:
The way you took papa-hood so seriously from the start! Parents -vs- Junior Giants games, being at all the girls special events (awards, dance, bungee soccer, etc) with camera in hand, seeing to it that they feel extra-celebrated on their special days, being protective over them but considerate of their feelings at the same time, your natrual concern for their best interests...and the list can go on forever! I NEVER asked you to be as active of a Papa as you were. I never told you what to say, how to act or what to do. YOU were YOU, and THAT my babee was more than I could ever have asked.
Your personality! Just the other night, Nicole and Jose and I were chillin and talking about how easily it was for you to get along with anyone and everyone. You'd always seek-out opportunities to do pranks, tell jokes, act silly...all to entertain others! You had a passion for making people HAPPY:).
FAMILY! Not just me and the girls, but with me being the youngest of 7 means-my parents, lots of siblings, nieces, nephews, grand nieces/nephews, not to mention all our friends and the rest of our extended family which meant-lots of birthday parties, holiday parties, special celebration parties, and even more "just because" parties:)! You were a big part of it all whether it was you dj'ing, Wii (Just Dance) battles, sweatin buckets playing flag football, handling everyones electronics issues, introducing your new gagets and making everyone want one, lovin and playing with all the kids (this was how we mostly remember you at family gatherings), or just hanging out conversating with everyone.
Or even the moments you and dad sit at the table talking thru the Bible during our Sunday afternoon visits to Vallejo. Just precious! Sometimes I'd wake up on the couch from a nap and just lay there listening to you two!
I really could go on forever explaining these priceless, simple moments but you could just go back and read many of my other posts and find more. But for now, I'm gonna try to get some rest. Got another long day ahead. I just get these thoughts outta my head in into this never-ending letter to you:)
Goodnight (again) hot stuff. 1434
Sitting on the couch holding hands, even when it wasn't anything you were interested in. And how your head would end up on my shoulder...then you'd fall asleep. I'd end up waking you up cuz your snoring was louder than the TV. Sometimes I'd get frustrated after waking you and telling you to go sleep in the room over and over, but you'd never wanna leave my side till I was ready for bed too. I'm glad you never listened.
A lot of couples barely talk to eachother at home, let alone be affectionate with eachother. But not us! You always had your arms around me or held my hand. Asleep, awake, by ourselves, with a house full of guests, ALWAYS! We would be doing our own thing and a song would play...next thing I knew, you'd stop what you were doing, pull me away from whatever I was doing and we'd be slow dancing in the kitchen! We were like those elderly couples we see on TV that made us sigh and say "that's what I want when I'm old."
The times we'd turn everything off and just sit there on the couch and TALK. No TV, no music, just you & me talking about whatever. "Only rule - no serious talk!"
The way I held my head up high whenever I was out with you. You were like my trophy-husband! LoL Seriously though, having your arm around me was a privlege I never took for granted.
Your appetite! You made me feel like the best cook in the entire world! You were the best taste-tester ever because you'd always say you loved it from the first taste-test to the last:). Ya, you just plain liked FOOD...but you still made me feel special:)
Other than our you-and-me-special moments, i've been thinking a lot about:
The way you took papa-hood so seriously from the start! Parents -vs- Junior Giants games, being at all the girls special events (awards, dance, bungee soccer, etc) with camera in hand, seeing to it that they feel extra-celebrated on their special days, being protective over them but considerate of their feelings at the same time, your natrual concern for their best interests...and the list can go on forever! I NEVER asked you to be as active of a Papa as you were. I never told you what to say, how to act or what to do. YOU were YOU, and THAT my babee was more than I could ever have asked.
Your personality! Just the other night, Nicole and Jose and I were chillin and talking about how easily it was for you to get along with anyone and everyone. You'd always seek-out opportunities to do pranks, tell jokes, act silly...all to entertain others! You had a passion for making people HAPPY:).
FAMILY! Not just me and the girls, but with me being the youngest of 7 means-my parents, lots of siblings, nieces, nephews, grand nieces/nephews, not to mention all our friends and the rest of our extended family which meant-lots of birthday parties, holiday parties, special celebration parties, and even more "just because" parties:)! You were a big part of it all whether it was you dj'ing, Wii (Just Dance) battles, sweatin buckets playing flag football, handling everyones electronics issues, introducing your new gagets and making everyone want one, lovin and playing with all the kids (this was how we mostly remember you at family gatherings), or just hanging out conversating with everyone.
Or even the moments you and dad sit at the table talking thru the Bible during our Sunday afternoon visits to Vallejo. Just precious! Sometimes I'd wake up on the couch from a nap and just lay there listening to you two!
I really could go on forever explaining these priceless, simple moments but you could just go back and read many of my other posts and find more. But for now, I'm gonna try to get some rest. Got another long day ahead. I just get these thoughts outta my head in into this never-ending letter to you:)
Goodnight (again) hot stuff. 1434
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Still Hurts...
I got this GS Email a little while ago. It's like a solution to what I wrote about in my last post an hour and a half ago! How amazing is that?!?!
Keeping Your Mind on Jesus
Day 156
Controlling your thoughts is one of the most difficult things to do. You probably find it easy to worry, to daydream, to let your imagination run wild, and to let unbidden thoughts creep in and take over. But, oh, the repercussions of this lack of control.
God tells you in Philippians 4:8 where to direct your thoughts: "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things."
Daily prayer and Bible study will help you keep your mind on Christ Jesus and will help you stay in God's will.
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Now, my dilema is this: I DO pray often AND am studying God's Word daily, but everything still hurts... :(
Help me babee. 1434
Keeping Your Mind on Jesus
Day 156
Controlling your thoughts is one of the most difficult things to do. You probably find it easy to worry, to daydream, to let your imagination run wild, and to let unbidden thoughts creep in and take over. But, oh, the repercussions of this lack of control.
God tells you in Philippians 4:8 where to direct your thoughts: "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things."
Daily prayer and Bible study will help you keep your mind on Christ Jesus and will help you stay in God's will.
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Now, my dilema is this: I DO pray often AND am studying God's Word daily, but everything still hurts... :(
Help me babee. 1434
Alone-Time
I've had a lot of alone-time since the kids have been on Spring Break. I haven't seen Isa & Jin since Sunday night, and La since early Monday morning when she said goodbye.
Being alone SUCKS! All I can think about is spending alone-time with you. I was never this lonely because even when you weren't physically with me, we'd be in constant contact via phone/text/email. Even when there was nothing to talk/chat about...you'd just shoot me a "guess what?" and i'd say "you love me:)". Or i'd ask where you are and you'd say "on my way home to put a smile on your face". Trust me, the text alone put a smile on my face each and every time...
I've been doing more searching and applying for jobs, so I'm praying I get some calls tomorrow for interviews. Of all weeks, THIS week is the perfect week for me to be scheduling interviews since the girls are with family. Thursday and Friday, if I get no interviews scheduled, my plan is to walk into temp agencies and beg for work. Even the ones who've sent generic replies to my previous online inquires saying "we'll get back to you" and haven't.
Finding work is critical now and focusing on that is helping ease the lonliness a bit (distractions are good!). So is working out. But no matter how hard I work at both, you remain on my mind through it all. The word "mark" in a job description, my Honey Bunches Of Oats breakfast, the couples walking hand-in-hand around the creek, the random computer issues/glitches i've run into while emailing resumes, the "Mark & Lei" playlist I play on my ipod while walking...all those things remind me of YOU!
Anyways, trying to type and watch the season premiere of One Tree Hill is kinda difficult so I'll say goodnight now and pretend you're here watching with me:). Miss you so much my honey-bunches-of-oats! 1434
Being alone SUCKS! All I can think about is spending alone-time with you. I was never this lonely because even when you weren't physically with me, we'd be in constant contact via phone/text/email. Even when there was nothing to talk/chat about...you'd just shoot me a "guess what?" and i'd say "you love me:)". Or i'd ask where you are and you'd say "on my way home to put a smile on your face". Trust me, the text alone put a smile on my face each and every time...
I've been doing more searching and applying for jobs, so I'm praying I get some calls tomorrow for interviews. Of all weeks, THIS week is the perfect week for me to be scheduling interviews since the girls are with family. Thursday and Friday, if I get no interviews scheduled, my plan is to walk into temp agencies and beg for work. Even the ones who've sent generic replies to my previous online inquires saying "we'll get back to you" and haven't.
Finding work is critical now and focusing on that is helping ease the lonliness a bit (distractions are good!). So is working out. But no matter how hard I work at both, you remain on my mind through it all. The word "mark" in a job description, my Honey Bunches Of Oats breakfast, the couples walking hand-in-hand around the creek, the random computer issues/glitches i've run into while emailing resumes, the "Mark & Lei" playlist I play on my ipod while walking...all those things remind me of YOU!
Anyways, trying to type and watch the season premiere of One Tree Hill is kinda difficult so I'll say goodnight now and pretend you're here watching with me:). Miss you so much my honey-bunches-of-oats! 1434
Monday, April 18, 2011
Goodnight sweetheart...
I had a long, rough day (weekend, actually) but I couldn't go to sleep without saying goodnight to you. A few minutes ago, I got an email from Pastor Ron in reply to a message I sent him earlier today. He stated "The wonderful thing is that his LIFE SPOKE volumes and the legacy/testimony he left in such a short amount of time on this earth is still being used to the glory of God." That put a smile on my face and put my mind a little more at ease.
I have an early day tomorrow with my new PTFH (Personal Trainer From Hell), Emily, so goodnight sweetheart.
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I have an early day tomorrow with my new PTFH (Personal Trainer From Hell), Emily, so goodnight sweetheart.
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