For the past hour and a half, I've been watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. I thought it would be pretty safe to watch until a simple, beautiful song literally took my breath away! A romantic comedy that is hilarious throughout...had me crackin up like crazy...yet just ONE song brought me to tears!
I forgot all about this song! I even forgot about the memory that makes this song so special... for goodness sake - the song isn't even in our slow jam playlist, or on my ipod at all, for that matter! I'm part mad that I forgot about it / part happy I was reminded of it and the memories that came with it / part HORRIBLY lonley, sad and angry because you're not here to relive the memories with me.
"Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong"
It was the beginning of 2008. Just weeks after we moved back to the Bay from SoCal. SoCal was safe. We let the kids play outside and even walk to and from school. Not at all like Oakland! It was night (oakland) and day (Aliso Viejo). The girls and I were sick as can be with allergies too! You had to spend a week in SoCal for work and had to leave us to be on our own for the first time.
I spent those nights awake and checking on every little noise we heard. It was always nothing, but each time I'd hear something the restlessness grew. Even though you and I were on the phone or texting a million times each day!
I cried and your voice comforted me. But as soon as we'd get off the phone I'd cry some more because I missed you so much. I longed for the security the girls and I felt having you close.
You came home after a looooong week with a paradise cake from Kings Hawaiian (YUM!), 1 red rose you bought on each of the 5 days you were working in SoCal, a sweet card...one of those super-sentimental/mushy ones we loved to get eachother...and these lyrics hand written in the card. You said you heard the song on your drive back home and it reminded you how much you love us, missed us, and how you'd do anything to get us outta there and to a safer place . *sigh*
I'll never forget this song again! 1434
